Remembering A Time As A Child Hating Today

I was at a local suburb mall today.  Thought I’d go to the local music store pick up yet another DVD of a classic movie from the 80’s because TV now a days is total shit!  I bought some music too to help cheer me up.  I walked around in the mall and noticed a place where kids go to jump around in what looked like trampolines with color balls flying all over the place.  This place was called Wiggle World?  I looked in from across the way I won’t stand there looking in the window cause that wouldn’t look right.   But seeing those children have the time of their lives makes me desparately wish I could go back in time to when I was young & didn’t have the mountainous worries, mental illness, anxieties, and depression that I have today.  I didn’t have a lot of those fun filled days as a child but I did have SOME.   And its those days, memories if you will that if I could ask God to grant me any wish it would be to go back to one day in my life were I was truly happy.   You don’t know how much I would want that!  truly hate the 21st Century with all those stupid gadgets, texting, people being mean to you, the intolerance, the rudeness that all gets to me.  Most of all living here in the Pacific Northwest everyone here is so flaky no one keeps their promises on ANYTHING!  Nothing but drones living here.   I miss my old life back in California but even California isn’t the same anymore.  That’s changed drastically.  I hate when people ignore you, I hate the fast pace, since when is life like the starting gate at the local race track? Can you answer me that?  Backwards people who seem to live in the 1950’s, everyone in a hurry to go no where.   No one says hello.   Its why I hate where I live so much!  You know while I was sitting here in my apartment today I was watching Murder She Wrote and its a great series …well I caught the very first episode which was on today the pilot.  And I was feeling kind of sad because it shows the actress Angela Lansberry riding her bicycle around the small town of Cabot Cove where her character lives, she is waving at everybody….it got me real depressed because that sure doesn’t happen here in the Pacific Northwest you try that & people will look at you like your crazy or talk real bad about you.   Watching things like that make me feel real sad, mad, yet at the same time yearn about why that still doesn’t happen today.  I even remember as a child how easy it was to wave at the neighbors of my neighborhood.  How people stopped you in the street to say hello.   I miss those days.  And I’m a young,attractive woman everyone.   I’m not into wild parties, hanging out with a bunch of miscreants who want nothing more than to be self destructive for no other reason than because they think its fun.

Younger generation, OMG nothing but a bunch of wild & crazy kids trying to see how far they can go, before killing themselves I guess.   I have termed them the “Suicide Generation”  .

I long for a few childhood days & those previous years lost so long ago.  It makes me real sad.  Cause I sure can’t stand the 21st Century….Its awful.   Perhaps moving to a different climate were there are friendlier people might be what I need.   I’m thinking that it might be. 

From the music of today (which I can’t stand) to the trashy TV shows(just plain garbage)  to other people’s nasty & indifferent attitudes 2013 and all the years of the 21st Century which preceded it are a dismal reminder of just how far our society is sinking….just like quicksand.

That’s sad!