I Will Type What I Feel.

For those of you who don’t approve of what I type?

I am beyond doing anything for approval.  That was my

Parents job.  Stop picking fights with me.  As WordPress states

We have a freedom to express.

I do not troll others posts, that’s not me.

I do not stalk someone on their social media sites.  As lonely as I can get, come on even I can find constructive ways to fill my time.

So I blog on my own site. 

With that said, now onto my writing.   Today is Saturday, its a total mess!  Lots & lots of rain.  Basically this time of year I prefer to call it the Pacific Northwest monsoon season only not quite as bad as in other parts of the World primarily Southeast Asia.  Finally its tapered off.

My blog today isn’t particularly earth shattering.  But I wanted to write something down.  

I’m home today eating soup, watching The Guardian.  If I could do things differently when I was in the Military it would have been to join the Coast Guard.  Hadn’t heard of them when I was 18.  Only recruiter on my high school campus was the Army recruiter and oh boy was he full of shit.

Anyway, I’m doing alright.  I’m already planning on what I’ll do tomorrow something I am not always good at doing. 

Church is at the top of my list.  After much shopping around I picked one over In North City.  Basically at this point in my life I want absolutely no relationships outside of friendships.  None.  I’ve read in online reviews & the Churches website that its a friendly Church so no clicques or folks that deliberately ignore you if they don’t know you type of nonsense.  Based on much shopping around with some of the Chuches this is what I’ve found.    The way I figure it is, Church is not a bad idea.  I hope to make some good friends.  Learn spirituality, which will help me in the long run, like fueling up the car after a long trip.   For me I’m totally running on fumes at this point.

Outside the spiritual communities I’ve found it to be:



Among some other things I’ve experienced all throughout my adult life.  I need more.  Plus besides my goal of attend school, with the hope of relocating once I’ve graduated, I need more substance than what I have now.

Basically my life will revolve around:



A part time job ( Don’t wish to work as a cashier, ever notice how some places always stick the women in that position?)

Music lessons ( I used to be an accompolished piano player, but on a small venue, but I was good).

Martial arts

It’s time to get serious.

No more silliness.

If all of these life’s situations haven’t continued to plague me, I would been involved in all of these things.  However its never too late cause at one time I was involved with one or more of the list of extracurricular activities.

Can’t be worried about what someone thinks of my blogs.  I’m an awesome writer with the potential to write a great novel.

Who knows what the future may hold for me.

I must say that I really had wished someone would have said this to me when I was around 12-18 years of age right around the time Mom & I fled California to come to Washington,wow what a crazy time that was.  Those critical years when there would have been a chance for success.  Where I wouldn’t have suffered so much of how cruel the World can be.  Although the childhood I had was horrendous and I mean real horrendous where I was stripped of any amount of dignity and that is both figuratively & literally I must rebuild. 

I think I’ve said this before but I’ll say it again, much like when a natural disaster hits a town, it is then rebuilt better than ever before.

Well I like to think of my life as a town devastated by a Natural disaster, were there was not so much emergency relief, but the will to rebuild albeit real slowly to be better than ever before!  

I’m much like a carpenter trying to build myself a house, but every time I try then I’m knocked over by a full gale force wind.

Like those courageous folks in:

New Orleans

Joplin Missouri


North Carolina

And other cities & towns I didn’t mention

I will rebuild better than ever before! 

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Time for a coffee run.