More Goals For 2015

Greetings my fellow bloggers & visitors.
I’ve decided that as of today I will implement
some goals that I will follow up on starting the
1st of March.
I will:

1. Enroll in a electrician correspondance course
2. Devote no less than 5 days per week once I’m enrolled
3. Begin brushing up on my MATH. Math was/is an issue
4. Become more spiritual so that I can be at peace

All of this hit me just now, while I’m house sitting and its just time to get going.
You see, for all of my life I lacked direction, nobody showed me anything. Know how I know what little I do know? By simply watching either a positive type TV show or watching someone else, because thats all I had. No one in my life would invest any time to help me along. Today I’m not bitter. Tomorrow I may feel something else.
However, its up to me to get things going and believe me it’s difficult at least it is for me.
Because I have all this other negative stuff that swirls in my head, like those horrible tornado’s that plague the Mid West.
Thats it for now.
I think that I should keep this short.
I’ve got things I need to do.
I know that I don’t say this hardly at all
but I want to thank you for reading
And thanks WordPress for without this site
I’d probably be on drugs, getting into some awful trouble
This site keeps me grounded.

Published by: The Lonely Shepard

Me: I grew up in an extremely abusive & disadvantaged family environment were both parents were really immature & their relationship messy! I was abducted by my Father at age 8 abused physically, mentally, degraded by his 2nd Wife, and I didn't see my Mother again until 4 years later, I had to risk my neck + my life to run off to seek help with the local police & this was way before there was any such laws on the books for child abuse. Think on that awhile. Had learning disabilities all throughout school by the time I graduated I learned nothing, was prepared for nothing out in the World. Think on that. Joined the United States Army right out of High School only reason I did join was that at the time there was an Army recruiter right on the High School campus & he took an interest in me. So I joined. I was really in over my head. But what else could I do? I lived with a single Mom who was emotionally unstable & I had ZERO support from anyone including the school staff + administrators. The military was hard & degrading to me as a woman but I got out with an honorable discharge. More about me: A series of dead end jobs, my mind was totally a mess after I got out of the Army, still had no support not even from the Veterans admin. My journey has been a total nightmare of: trying to find out about myself, learning about myself, how to live as an adult, all with no help. Now after long , and intensive filled journey I'm trying to get back on track with my life I want to go to school with the hope of one day attending University. I don't wish my journey on anyone. No one gave me guidance: as a child as a teen as a young adult I was all on my own! and it was real lonely , isolating, extremely frightening. Family? don't really have any. Now remember everyone I'm African American & I receive little to no respect I don't even warrant a speeding car that will slow down. "The person who sang the National Anthem sang the last note so high that no could reach it! That was intentional!" Belize from Tony Kushners play Angels In America. If you've read this far I will leave my email in case you want to leave me a msg. Those that are rude will get deleted immediately. Contact:

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