I don’t get it. I’m sitting here in my hot ass apartment the CBS news is on tv when a story is on about teen suicide. Oh come on! My teen years were HELL! I wanted to die all the time, I had depressive thoughts, no one gave a damn nor did I receive attention on how I did in school or anything else for that matter. It’s nothing new. I don’t understand why the news media which lies to you all the time even think that this is such a newsbreak. It makes me angry. In fact I still think of suicide but of course its just the teens that have this problem right? o O Yeah what ever. I’m barely getting by, I’m writing to therapists ( last one was a bit weird she seemed like she wanted to be my buddy….ewww getting too personal) I’m sinking deeper into a dark pit. I should have been named fucked as in fucked up for life. I’m not a teen. Hell I wish I were a teen then I could start over & do things differently because as a teen you have your life ahead of you unlike my AGE were I’ve made mistake after mistake all the while having people laugh at me, putting me down with pott shots & insults, or having an unstable Mother talk about the bible shoving her religion down your throat. Or having people act like a deer in the head lights when you ask them a question ( and no I’m not aggressive like some of you love to think of black women, surprise we are people despite the stereotypes) acting scared. See everyone this is what you call getting triggered. GOSH sure want that cig now, Hell why not Seattle’s air quality is so bad (please visit the search engine about the hazy air today) I’ll die anyway, the air rates worse than Los Angeles. How about that?? Here I’m trying to figure out my life, My Mother doesn’t want to be bothered, I’m all alone, and do other stuff I’m too ashamed to mention & some young teen offs him or herself? What gets me is these same kids have loving PARENTS that they can talk to. I never had that, I got death threats as a teen when one dish got left in the sink. JESUS! Kids next time you have those thoughts come drop me a message & I’ll write about my life. I guarantee that you’ll be so grateful for your:
Grateful for what you have which is probably WAY more than what I have, trust me.
Your life that’s ahead of you
and all of the possibilities
that you’ll have a change of heart.
Too be continued……….